gosh.. i cant believe he read all my posts!! goodness.

and! he even remembered my url! wheee~ ahahaha!
i'm turning in.

cya!

:D

one of them told me he said he doesnt know me. then another she told me that he doesnt know me. seriously, i have no idea wads going on.


went upstairs after recess. found out that he was walking INFRONT of me. gosh.. suddenly. he and his friend stopped walking. they turned back. he saw me. he said, "HI!" and waved. OH MY GOSH! my heart like stopped beating. i could have died on the spot.. hahaha! waved back. and smiled! ROFL!


i'm real confused.. does he know that i'm joyce? dilemma! haiyo..


i think she doesnt like the idea of i liking him. i'm guessing that she must have liked him too.


i hate fnn's theory!! i'm practically yawning through the whole lesson.. luckily i was sitting in the back. i want practical!! having fnn on friday! plus practical! YAYS! =D


i'll give, all the love in the world. =)

i'm guessing everyone knows who's R. yep! i'm cheery this past 2 days! YIPEE~


monday..
he went into 3/6!! and! i hid behind shakila. too paiseh le.. LOL. den! after common test.. i went outside to take my books back in the class. i looked to my left, -screams- he was looking at me! plus! he was smiling.. HAHAHAHA!! i think i smiled back too. my happy day~ =)


today!
had cca. now i know.. so many people hate "mei nu". tsk tsk.. shes NOT going to be the CL! hahahaha! even chengyi disagrees that shes a good person. den! i was at the slope there. i looked at the gate.. i saw him! den shiping shouted, "QY!" den he turned. i waved to him. he waved back! i sceamed. ROFL! at the canteen. i was throwing something. he walked past me. i said, "HELLO!!" and smiled at him. his reply. "HI!" smiled back at me too! GOSH!


I'M THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD! =D


so toot! so cute! yuan yuan is soo kuku! =)

this is a message to my friend. lets call her, R.


R:
we were very close together with the rest of the ane's during our secondary 2 lives dont we? i mean.. we did get into the same sec 3 class. and we are like.. drifting apart.. you told me that we will go home together with the ane's. i did wait for you after school. but you, you left without telling me a word. i went with the ane's to mac. i saw you. you were with your cca friends. after you have been a councillor, i guess that some things must have changed, alot.. and during the lvl camp. i walked past you. you looked at me, i wanted to wave to you, instead, you looked at me, and turned away. seriously, it didnt happen once, it happened alot of times. you told me to wait for you every period before recess. but you went off, without noticing the ane's. i tried calling out to you. you din turn back. sometimes i get the feeling that once you have new friends, you throw your old friends down into the dump. you din care about what we felt no more. you're just using us. i'm truly disappointed.

you dont have to read this R.


him! him and him! xD

back from the sec 3 level camp! wheee~


had the kayaking first. but it was low tide, so we did rafting. i thought it was boring in the first place, indeed it was. had to build it by ourselves. a lizard appeared out of nowhere.. -screams- build build build.. an hour passed. our raft was not the best looking among the other 3 groups. but, what matters was in the inside right? carried it to the sea. once it was placed in the sea, the competition started. 2 of the rafts had broken up into pieces. -chuckles- our group and 1 group continued. i went on the second time. we had to go on a relay. which was to go 3 times.. yes~ that lady in a boat keep telling the rest of the 4 people, "follow that girl! follow that girl! she's doing it correctly! follow her follow her!!" HAHAHAHAHAHA!! we won!!! -singing the 3 cheers-


had the team building games after lunch. my shoes were soaking wet with sea water plus loads of sand. den while walter lim was talking to us about some teamwork stuffs, i was calling puifun, "puifun puifun! look at my shoes! can make water leh!" i squeezed my shoes, water came out. den walter lim said, "aiyo! that girl arh. dont make your shoes lah.. very disgusting leh, -laughs-" he was kidding though.. funny t'cher. =)


i hate that tent!! its full of some stinking god damn mud!! eewww!! and! its full of some disgusting sandflies and MOSQUITOES!!! AHHHHH!! sandflies.. what are they? flies that are made out of sand? -.-"


woke up the next morning, my legs were filled with those irratating mosquitoes bites!!! wanted to place the photos here.. but, nahz.. i've changed my mind. its gross. cant really stop those itch. and those sickening sandflies bit me!!! -kills them-


had high element games the next day. we din get to try the first one. some other group came. curse them.. i was sitting there. infront of the second game. then that guy suddenly pointed to me, telling me to go over. went over. OH MY FRICKING GOD! its so damn high up and it was so difficult to climb up!! and a guy from the other side pulled up me up. everything was fun! except we din get to try the flying fox.


next was the low element games. theres an event that i'll like to elaborate on. while we were playing the spiderweb thinggy, i suddenly broke down and started crying. i just couldnt help but stop tears from flowing. cant believe i cried.. sheesh! i'm sensitive though.. the reason is, someone said something about her own body mass. then, i denied it. some other people pointed to me. i was mad though.. but at the same time, i was hurt by her words. then, i broke down. seriously, try being in my shoes for awhile. seriously you wont even like one single bit.

sangeetha cheered me up. she knew how it was like being someone like me. she's like the only one who can really understand how i feel. ^^


well, i felt much better the next day. (:
overall, the camp was really really fun!!
our group, GROUP 9 WON THE BEST GROUP!
SECOND PLACE! *claps*


i went home, on my handphone. GOSH!! I CANT BELIEVE MY EYES!
BLUR BOY SENT ME 2 SMSES!!! -SCREAMING-
okok!! he's like the most charming boy i've ever seen!
i really regret not bring my handphone to the camp. he even knew i was at the camp!! ahaha! oh yah.. the whole sch was camping. =.="


I LOVE YUAN YUAN!
=DD

yes.. i've cut my hair!! -sobs- now it looks very very short. actually.. not very short.. -.-"


during physics, we used the vernier caliper. den got that poking thing at the back of that vernier caliper.. den my sis wanted to poke kerk's butt. AHAHAHA!! kerk's funny though..


i waited from 1630 to 1700+, and shiping cant din show up!! -mad- have to go up to her class..

and and!!
I SAW YUAN YUAN! WEETS!! he's sweeping the floor. i guess he's in detention. oh yah.. he is in detention.. =/ he's so cute!! gosh!
-falls deeply in love-


yep! tmr shiping and i are going to be the "ex-cos" for that training. abit nervous though.. we have so many things to do tmr! cant wait!


BTW! thnks ass! AHAHAHAHA!!
=))


i love yuan yuan.
:D

cca open house was quite fun! although some people declined to even take a look inside. and they dont even want to take my flyers or something. some sec 1s have attitude problems.. tsk tsk tsk..


when i was coming down the stairs.. omg! guess who i saw? weeee~ i saw blur boy! AHAHAHAHAHA!! smiled at him though.. =D


i love my yuan yuan. (:

the 11th floor residents are
DRIVING ME NUTS!

all those construction sounds, knocking sounds.. blah blah blah.. you name it!!

cant take it anymore..

i miss him. i love him.


FRIDAY THE 13TH!!
i had some bad luck though..


wankee almost fainted once she knew that blur boy was in her class. tsk tsk.. slow reaction sia.. LOL. =D


cca open hse tmr. full guides uni!! AHHHH!!! and no pony tails. die die die..


i found you.

HOW I HATE THAT FUCKING BITCH STANDING AT THE SCHOOL'S BOOKSHOP!!


i was ordering the chemistry files, den that pig wants to torture me. keep asking me to count those coins a thousand million times. fucking asshole.. cant help shouting every single words into her deaf ears. get fired as soon as possible, get a real life. (:


and oon yu and raj!!
WATCH OUT. you people dont pay me for any chemistry things the next time, you're gonna die.


puifun, sammi, my sis and me named our chemistry grp..
ALIBABA!
ahahaha. actually it was some other name.. but i was laughing like siao. so, changed it. now, our wonderful work was being pasted on the wall next to puifun and i. *admires*


BLUR BOY!
I MISS YOU SO MUCH!
=)


yes of cause its not worth it. what are you? blind? craps..

tweety bird's lesson was so god damn funny! the 4 of us laughed real hard. i couldnt control myself. sam wrote on jie's bk, saying, "look at tweety bird's eyebrow! one long one short. LOL! " luckily i dint glance nor look through it, i might have died. =/


HE'S SO CUTE!! 100% CUTE! and he's got the gong gong look. ain it adorable?
i love my blur boy! xD


i was thinking, why should i be afraid and keep running away from him? and them? nop! i shouldnt be. either ways, i wont be changing my blog. look at my posts for all you want. i dont fricking care no more..


3 CHEERS FOR MY BLUR BOY! :D


suffering in silence

everything's a mistake..

1 huge mistake.


i regret it..

truly..


look on the bright side,

i'm gonna change my url soon. (:


-pukes- i din even know why i even bothered. you should be greatful that i felt the same way.. yes, all of them agreed. seriously, how fake can you get? what? the next thing you can tell me is.. that you're gonna commit suicide? please.. you started it first. let go

yes! i bought the last fnn textbook..

ty puifun, matin and jasmine! sorry jasmine! for "stealing" your last book..

SORRY!


oh great. now the main computer broke down.. shit.


maybe its my fault, i never should have answered. hate me for all you want, i cant do anything anymore..

i'm under depression.. again.


why do i keep having bad luck? maybe its called, karma. i'm having my own retribution.. yes. i'm a bitch, a fucking liar, a whore. curse me, may i be gone soon. why cant i be like other kids? i look like a normal kid. but, why cant i just be like them? i'm going bonkers soon. the first week of school has just ended. and.. my troubles are starting to surface up again. its like a daily routine.. for a year or so. nobody ever listens to me anymore. talk behind my back for all you want you miserable people, i dont really fricking care. i cant do anything right.. crap. how stupid can i get? she told me what you felt after hearing my tone yesterday. sorry.. please dont let this thing get to you that much. my little piece of heaven suddenly turns dark. and its only the beginning of year 2006. i wanna end this fucking life..


those shoutings, yellings, screamings, constantly repeating itself in my mind. throbbing in my head. i've tried many ways to stop it, but i failed. dark clouds hoved around the white, cheery, puffy clouds. it resembles like my life, which was once like a heaven, but its hell to me now. the night came, thunder filled with angst yelled out. the eye-shattering lightning flashed endlessly. negative thoughs engulfed my mind, controlling me to do things which i detests. fighting that moment, i'm helplessly dangling on a piece of string. sometimes i wished that i could just fall. after ending my life, i might not feel that hurtful and miserable on the inside. who knows? i might be in heaven..

qyqyqyqyqy

imysm.

:)

i fell sick. stupid bacteria flying and floating ard. curse dem..


had to buy tt fnn txtbk. tt stupid auntie at e bkshop.. tt older one. always fight back at me.. ytd, i was rushing for time. and she kept lagging me.. shit her. and! the best thing is. after recess was fnn. yet she dont wanna sell me. *points third finger*


had fnn exam. T.T .. first lesson of practical, and theres an exam. i was one of the first few to start the exam first. we had to fry an egg, sunny side up. and some french fries. easy? not for me. =.="


tt jian hao was infront of me. he seemed like my "mirror". he kept following what i do. wad he was doing? is wad i call, copying! DISGRACE MAN!
i did quite a number of mistakes..


-i cut e potatoes wrongly.
-i peel the potato skin off using the knife. i should have used tt slicing thing.. too bad. i din look in my drawer. and the best thing is.. faizal saw my doing that. i think i've scored low.
-there wasnt enough time for me to finish up everything. i was the second last to serve everything. sad..
-faizal keep staring at me when i cooked. SCARY..
-i kept coughing when i was cooking the egg. the smoke was "poisonous"
-coughed throughout the whole exam.. OMG.


& BEST OF ALL. i have a confession..



I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO CRACK AN EGG!


i'm such a loser.. =.=" my maid dont even let me cook. let alone do all the chores.

IT WAS SO FUN TODAY AT MAC!!

xD

oh innocent one,
feel my mind in yours,
take my wishes to your heart;

i bought an OP BAG!
thankies mummy!


muackss!



school's reopening tmr!


that means..


i'm not gonna go online for AGES!


& i'm gonna blog once a week from now on..


pretty devasting news to me though.


peer leading tmr!
WOOTS!

=)

HAPPY NEW YR PEOPLE!



i'm addicted to point blank & WILD ARMS!! i've been playing it for about a week, non-stop.
FREAKY!


i saw that billabong bag that i've always wanted today!! but that price of the bag? you dont wanna know..


& that nike shoes? ITS OUTTA STOCK ALREADY!!
went home with nothing.


sad, isn't it?



i dont wanna go to school!


i'm gonna miss point blank!
i'm gonna miss wild arms!
i'm gonna miss my maple pet!
i'm gonna miss mapling!
i'm gonna miss the computer!
i'm gonna miss waking up late!


& most importanly..


i'm gonna miss him loads.
(:


i love you sweetie.